So this weekend has already been very busy. 

Yesterday we travelled across to Northampton for my cousins 30th birthday, which was great! Saw lots of family that I’ve not seen in many, many years!

Today we travelled from There to Yorkshire for a few days.

It’s weird being back ‘home’. It has lots of memories,  both good and bad. 

I feel kind of out of place being here,  but not, as it’s home,  you know. 

Just some words…

A year ago I was living in a 20 something by 7 foot space with my 2 cats and recovering from one of the worst bouts of depression since I was diagnosed in my early 20s.

Since then I have met some of the most wonderful people I could ever hope to.

I have had wonderful times round a camp fire with some of the most beautiful souls I could ever imagine. Thank you to the Green Gathering crew for making my time there so much fun!

Our 3 weekly visitors, who entertained with their songs about Theresa May and the wonderful food (I miss yout guys so much!).

My fabulous work colleagues who help me and reassure me, and have inspired me so much.

The landlord that offers the most wonderful beers, and still keeps having me back!

My partners 2 beautiful children have made the last 3 weeks a whole lot of fun! I’ll miss those little munchkins and their early wake up calls!!

Naturally, my absolutely amazing partner, who offers cwtches (not cuddles or hugs!), and hours of entertainment with his silliness. 

And last, but no means least, all the people that have stuck with me through the ship times, and still offer words of comfort when needed.

This summer has, so far, been amazing. Highs and lows, but plenty of fantastic memories made!

Much love to you all xxx

Depression & suicide 

The last couple of months have seen us lose two rock legends – Chris Cornell (Soundgarden, Audioslave and solo artist)  and yesterday Chester Bennington of Linkin Park.

Both took their own lives. 

Both had families and apparently everything to live for. 

That’s the thing about depression though. It doesn’t care how many children you have, who you’re married to, how well your career is going or how much money you have in the bank. 

I have spoken here about suicide before, following the death of Robin Williams. 

People from all walks of life give up  because of depression. 

I often hear people say that committing suicide is ‘the cowards way out’. It’s really not. 

Think about how low you must be to choose to take your own life. All the fight is gone and you just see no point any more. 

A scary place to be. 

That’s why it’s important to talk. 

You might not have all the answers, but you don’t have to fix anyone, so it’s ok to flounder and just offer a hug. 

If you are having a tough time, reach out to someone. If friends and family are not an option, there are lots of places that you can find help, and I’m always happy to lend an ear. 

Take care x

Walk a mile in my shoes..

…and then dare to tell me I’m not strong.

You can never tell what others are going through,  or what they have been through. Never judge. Be kind.